This post was inspired by my own spiritual journey through life.
When you were told, “don’t rush to grow up,” because your journey through life as an adult will be like a roller coaster ride, they did not lie. The experiences we have in life have one specific purpose for all humans: to evolve our souls.
If you are alive and reading this post, then you have something to learn here on Earth. There are experiences that you will have that will shape who you are for better or for worse. There are many names for the journey back to our highest selves, but for now, we will call this a spiritual journey.
What is a Spiritual Journey?
When you Google “spiritual journey defined,” you are given a definition provided by Gemini A.I. that reads- “a personal, ongoing quest for deeper meaning, self-understanding, and connection to something greater than oneself, involving inner exploration, questioning beliefs, and transformation, often through practices like meditation, prayer, or nature, leading to greater peace and purpose, though paths vary widely from religious doctrines to secular exploration. It’s about personal growth, realizing your true self beyond the physical, and finding harmony within, often triggered by life shifts or a desire for more than material pursuits.“
The latter part of that definition resonates with me the most, because I am always in pursuit of finding out who I am outside of being human. I always had this underlying feeling that there is more to life than what is being presented to us. The event that sparked that for me was witnessing an U.F.O. in my younger years. That cosmic event started the questioning of everything around me, and why we have to do things a certain way and not our own way.
The Detachment Phase
There are so many layers and different phases when you are on a spiritual journey. I will be addressing the different phases of the spiritual journey in a later post, but for now, I want to direct your awareness to the detachment phase that also known as the “I don’t give a f*ck” phase.
I’d like to think that this phase is the final phase, but I can’t make that assumption with only 31 years on this planet. I will have to update this post on my 85th birthday to determine if I experienced phases during this journey.
The detachment phase is a phase that walks the line of freedom and spiraling for the worse. I don’t think I’ve fully arrived in the detachment phase; it feels like I have one foot in the door and I’m peeking in to see what the rest of the room looks like. If I fully commit to this room, I need to ensure that I have a window with a clear view to keep me from fully disconnecting.
In 2023, I read a book after I was laid off from my corporate job to occupy my new free time. The information in that book resonated so much; it was as if Michael Singer wrote that book specifically for me. Chapter 3 is the only way I can describe what it feels like to be in the detachment phase of my spiritual journey. One of the lines reads:
Page 43. “Who are you? I am the one who sees. From back in here somewhere, I lookout, and I am aware of the events, thoughts, and emotions that pass before me.”
In the healthiest way possible, I don’t feel connected to anything that is in my current life. I can feel the distinction between my human self and spiritual being when going through the motions of life. I truly feel like I am observing everything as a observor and not the experiencer. It’s a very odd feeling to put into words without sounding like I’m experiencing psychosis. I am very much grounded in this world, but I also feel the presence of my higher self observing. I have no idea how to explain it.
Being in this phase of detachment, I can live a more carefree life because I’m internally reminded that all of this is temporary and we only have a limited time on Earth. When I do that, everything is more intentional, I’m emotionally balanced, and I understand there is a bigger picture, and this experience is one of the necessary pieces.
There’s no experience (or person) that I can experience as a human that will ever make me question the spiritual being that I am. I’m not perfect, so when I feel as though I am leaning more into the human side, I remind myselfof these three things:
- I designed the life I am currently in down to every single detail because I know this is what I needed to evolve my soul.
- None of this is real, or the “final stop.” It’s a temporary experience that we call life, and the goal is to live it exactly how we want to (for our highest good) without fear or limitations.
- I get to experience being an individual in this magical world. There’s so much to discover on this planet, and I want to experience as much as I can in the limited time that I have left.
I know who I am when all materialistic elements are removed, and it took a lot of time to rediscover “her” through trauma, heartbreak, and everything else in between. I went through the dark to pull myself out, so I can’t imagine considering someone else’s opinion of me when I know the real.
Because I am so self-aware of my spiritual side, sometimes it is hard to function in life because I see things for exactly what it is. It’s almost like being psychic because you can visually see how a scenario will end. You also can’t make someone else see what you see. This is where the spiraling for the worst can happen. How can you stand by and watch someone crash and burn? You have to, and without judgment. Without the full details of someone’s life, it is impossible to make any type of judgment. You also can’t interfere because it may throw them off from evolving their spiritual side. There are so many layers that we can’t see, so it’s best to quietly observe.
What I Mean When I Say “I don’t care.”
I say I don’t care with every ounce of love and intention between each letter. Sometimes the best thing you can do is leave someone alone. You can care for other people because we are all small fragments from the source. We all have individual guides, ancestors, and our higher self helping us reach our destination, so why should I care? You have the same resources as I do with the same free will. If we are supposed to help each other, our paths will cross, and my intuition will guide me in what needs to be done. And when I decide to do “it,” just know it will be done with pure, intentional, and genuine love.
As a former people pleaser, it has been a very liberating experience not caring and prioritizing myself over others. The resentment that is built up from putting others’ needs above your own is enough to drive you crazy and cause illness within yourself. When you have enough resentment, there is a newfound coldness that is used as a new defense mechanism. And for me, that is the most effective shield from keeping the unwanted parts of the world away from me.
If you don’t remember anything else, remember this
We all have a duty to rediscover and love ourselves first before we love anyone else.
We all have the right to prioritize ourselves before we consider anything else. If something doesn’t align or feel right for you, then you can choose not care or consider it to be a part of your reality. If it is not supposed to be there, it will not be there.
Unfortunately, sometimes it’s hard to see the true intention behind human eyes, so you have to rely on all of your senses to guide you. Trust your initial instincts. You would never steer you wrong.
Release the shackles that have been disguised as guilt. Guilt will keep you trapped in a never-ending loop of your own personal purgatory. If anyone ever tries to guilt-trip you, respond with “Unfortunately, I don’t care” and then go on about your life.
It’s your life. Your intentions. Your decisions. Your choices. Be free to live it however you want, with whoever you want, doing whatever you want.
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